What I need – Freedom

When I think about religion, I would like to compare it to a mother who out of her love does not trust the capabilities of the child. Trys to control and question each and every action of the child. This behaviour of the mother is not because she wants to have superiority over the child but out of deep love. But the child wants to be free, wants to explore, wants to learn by trial and error. And who knows the child may prove the mother also wrong. But a child needs mother, he/she wants to come back to mother under certain circumstances even though the child has achieved the zenith of success. Similarly I need a religion that lets me be me, even when I tell I am an atheist, even when I say I abhor religion. I dont want my religion to keep me moral I will be moral despite it, I dont want my religion to control me, I will be under control despite it. I dont know if B R Lakshman Rao who wrote this drew the same meaning out of his poem, but yes I try to extract this liberty in everything I see.

ಅಮ್ಮ, ನಿನ್ನ ಎದೆಯಾಳದಲ್ಲಿ ಗಾಳಕ್ಕೆ ಸಿಕ್ಕ ಮೀನು ಮಿಡುಕಾಡುತಿರುವೆ ನಾನು ಕಡಿಯಲೋಲ್ಲೆ ನೀ ಕರುಳಬಳ್ಳಿ ಒಲವೂಡುತಿರುವ ತಾಯೆ, ಬಿಡದ ಬುವಿಯ ಮಾಯೆ(1) Oh Mother I am like a fish trapped in the depth of your heart.!! I am struggling to come out, but you dont cut that umbilical cord, you want to take care of me forever!!(1)
ನಿನ್ನ ರಕ್ಷೆಗೂಡಲ್ಲಿ ಬೆಚ್ಚಗೆ ಆಡಗಲಿ ಎಷ್ಟು ದಿನ ? ದೂಡು ಹೊರಗೆ ನನ್ನ ಓಟ ಕಲಿವೆ, ಒಳನೋಟ ಕಲಿವೆ, ನಾಕಲಿವೆ ಊರ್ಧ್ವ ಗಮನ, ಓ ಆಗಾಧ ಗಗನ(2) How many days more should I be under your protection !! Please push me out, I will learn to run !! I will learn the inner truth !! I will learn how to reach the top !! I will go beyond the enoromous sky!!(2)
ಮೇಲೆ ಹಾರಿ, ನಿನ್ನ ಸೆಳೆತ ಮೀರಿ, ನಿರ್ಭಾರಸ್ಥಿತಿಗೆ ತಲುಪಿ ಬ್ರಹ್ಮಾಂಡವನ್ನೇ ಬೆದಕಿ ಇಂಧನ ತೀರಲು, ಬಂದೇ ಬರುವೆನು ಮತ್ತೆ ನಿನ್ನ ತೊಡೆಗೆ, ಮೂರ್ತ ಪ್ರೇಮದೆಡೆಗೆ I will jump up !! I will overcome your pull!! I will feel weightlessness!! I stir the entire universe!! But dont worry, I’ll return to your lap!! I will not forget your unconditional love!!(3)

What is my belief?

I can never do justice in translating this beautiful poem by Kuvempu, but yes here is my humble attempt. Please excuse me I am not able to convey it properly, but yes this is my belief. And this is where I want to begin.

ಒ ನನ್ನ ಚೇತನ
ಆಗು ನೀ ಅನಿಕೇತನ (1)
Oh my dear self
You be beyond having abodes(1)
ರೂಪ ರೂಪಗಳನು ದಾಟಿ
ಭಾವ ಕೋಟಿಗಳನು ಮೀಟಿ
ಎದೆಯ ಬಿರಿಯೆ ಭಾವ ಧೀಟಿ
ಆಗು ಆಗು ಆಗು(2)
Go through different ideologies, experience them all!!
Go through different emotions,let them not shackle you!!
Be expressive,do not hide your emotions !!
Continue updating again and again!! (2)
ನೂರು ಮತದ ಹೊಟ್ಟತೂರಿ
ಎಲ್ಲ ತತ್ತ್ವದೆಲ್ಲೆ ಮೀರಿ
ನಿರ್ಧಿಗಂತವಾಗಿ ಏರಿ
ಆಗು ಆಗು ಆಗು(3)
Be aware of hundred schools of thoughts !!
Take the best out of them!!
And grow beyond the skys!!
Continue updating again and again!! (3)
ಎಲ್ಲಿಯೂ ನಿಲ್ಲದಿರು
ಮನೆಯನೆಂದು ಕಟ್ಟದಿರು
ಕೊನೆಯನೆಂದು ಮುಟ್ಟದಿರು
ಓ ಅನಂತವಾಗಿರು(4)
Dont stop any where!!
Dont ever take a permanent shelter and stagnate your growth!!
Limit is a farce, dont think you reached the end!
Be everchanging, Be Infinite (4)
ಅನಂತ ತಾನನಂತವಾಗಿ
ಆಗುತಿಹನೆ ನಿತ್ಯಯೋಗಿ
ಅನಂತ ನೀನನಂತವಾಗು
ಆಗು ಆಗು ಆಗು(5)
Those who already are infinite,
Will be always one with their internal selves
You also be infinite(5)

Why I question?

To laugh is to risk appearing fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach for another is to risk involvement.
To expose your ideas, your dreams,
before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To believe is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The people who risk nothing, do nothing,
have nothing, are nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes they are slaves;
they have forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.